Actual Bereavement, How does it feel?

 The only way I could describe it was like your emotional filing cabinet has been emptied out and put back in a different order, the a's are where the d's were the r's are next to the p's, you get the picture all over the place, there is anger you don't know where it comes from, sadness, solitude, alot is the natural process of grieving, not always easy for the people around you.